all piled into one

Back from all the holiday trips!

This holiday is so bittersweet.
So sweet that I could have the chance to go overseas twice in a year!
Both being quite amazing places.
So bitter that now I have to rush all my homework and chores.
So bitter that my skin is in horrible conditions all cause of the damned weathers overseas.

Pfft.

China was quite good, though about 3/4 of the tourism sites I've already been to in 2005.
But its always good when you are out with your family.
(:

Funny experiences there.
Suffered from horrible blisters due to the really fked up shoes I wore.
):

But it was good.
(:

Today was spent at Baby's place.
Cooked noodles, laughed at Lady Gaga's penis, and then Armpit Hair came.
Hanged out for a little while more, then he was off.
I was off.

Sherlyn, you will pull through.
:)

Woah this post is getting wordy!
Will be off then.

****

I'm afraid.
I'm scared of whatever might happen.
I thought I could be better to you.
But the more I hear, the more I distant.

I'm scared to be devoted.
I'm scared to give my all.
I'm scared that if I do, I might have to take back everything, in pieces by then.

I'm afraid to fall.
I'm afraid to hurt.
I don't want to go through the pain.

I know I'm not good enough.
And I know I'm not doing enough.

I'm sorry.

Because you are fearless.

And I'm not.